this is a really good song. read it!

Wrong AgainFather I hate to tell you thisYou taught me how to hit the markAnd once again I missed.Touch the fireYou always said that I get burnedWhy is it so hard to remember?All the lessons I have learned.How could you look at me that way?When I have failed so many timesShowing me love you tell the worldThis child is mineHow could you walk that extra mile?I see forgiveness in your smileSo should you reject me?Wrong againOnce againLord I have wondered from a pathThought I knew a better wayFrom a shorter word you've askedStanding hereI don't deserve a second chanceAnd I can't conceal the shame of youThen more I can standWhen I look into your faceAnd see the power of your graceI find it so hard to believeForgiveness that you're showing meI see the answer in your eyesLove and mercy I realizedFinally the truth has set me freeI thought you was goingInstead you're just holyThought you would judgeInstead you just love meSo should you reject me?Wrong again this is a greaat song and what I feel

we got a new car!!!

and it is really nice. I love it and i thank god

we got a new car!!!

and it is really nice. I love it and i thank god

so i was playiny with my dad phone and I fond out you can send picture to your email. i thought it was cool so here some of the pics:

job hunting

I tryed to find a job, but all o fthe places say 16 or older. so I'm going to wait

so there! here a picture for all to see the new me!, but I'll have some more up when i get them from my freind.

it is fear that you turly fear! and what do you pick

why fear it now when it will come instead of fearing what has not happen. spend the time learning how to fight so you can win. the resaon why I say this is because of the fact that they will be a war between god and the devil. some are fear it and don't wont to believe it because they are to scared of what might happen but why why fear it. it is coming there is no change that. so spend your time learning how to fight because if you hide you will lose. What doyou pick the easy way or the right way. the easy way is to go down the wrong path. don't try, give up and go to the wrong side because you don't have to do any thing hard. no one will be trying to kill you in tall the end because if you don't workyou'll will go down the wrong path. it might be easy now but think of the end. what will be the out come?

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the meaning of the title is how I feel and that is that ><
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a job?

so I'm am thinking of getting a job. Maybe I sould tommorow I am going to get a working permate and go looking for a job because I am sick of not having money when some one ask me i i if want to go some where and i have no money or if i want some thing and I no no money. so I want to work at subway. but i have a busy weekness but on the week day I'm not so maybe I will get a job. I'm so tired all the time. my dad said that I have to keep my grades up c and higher, but that a good thing because all of my grades are b's and a's, but I have one c in P.E. :( it because I don't dress out because I forgot to clean my p.e. outfix so that less that a c and easy to get up:).

good AND bad or hell and heaven

so think of the most pretty thing you saw and now think about the wrost think that has ever happen. imange god say that hell and heaven are a 1,000 times wrost or better and for me it is the wrost thing that I seen latey is a jr. hitting a freahman for saying a HI to a girl and that was he girl friend. he made the freashmen CRY it made me so MAD I can't believe how mean the world is. Some of the books I read some of the things I'v seen. God said that the human mind can't understand what would happen to us in hell. It will be 1,000 times wrost them the human mind kind think of. wow! but it also say that heaven will be a 10,000 times better and think of the best think you have ever happen to you and think about the best think you have ever seen and then try to make it 10,000 times better then try to times it again. I can't imange, but still I have a thing inside of me. I,m am trying talk to god about it, but how do I hear him and my prolbem is how do I believe in some one who I never seen who I ever know and most of all how doi respeat him if I don't fear him, I don't know why but I have a lot of qeustions and I don't know how to talk to him and if he is punishing me how do I know it is him. well I know i am not that far in my walk, but I am growing and I have to keep on walking and I have to keep on going to get to heaven!

one busy busy day

so it started at 6;30 am when I got up. me and sarah and work on the home coming flout from 7:30 to 10:00 and for a hour we sat in the hot sun waiting. from 11:00 to12:30 some people and I had to run handing out candy to little kids and after that we went back to the school and in tall6 work on the set, then the next morning we got up at 6:00 for chrunch.

harry potter!!! and home coming

Harry potter is a really great book right now I am on the 4 book it is awesome and what I wanted to say about the book is it not bad unless you belive it and I don't. it was funny ,because I was at chruch and they were talking about if god ask you to do some thing would you out of fear or by faith and in the book who-sould-not-be-named is reborn and the death eater only come back out of fear. so.. moving on homecoming is coming. I have the dress, but no date and really i am fine with that I want to go and dacne with everyone.

so...

right now I am thinking of all the guy I like because in my life I am looking for a husband and i know I am to young, but hey what can I say. well when I was going throw all of the guy I liked two shanded out, but one of them is 3 years older then me that I'm going to call tall dude because he tall and the one 5 years older that I'mk going to call shine eyes and i ahve a song to decide them :)Here're the lyrics:I'm tuggin' at my hairI'm pullin' at my clothesI'm tryin to keep my coolI know it showsI'm staring at my feetMy cheeks are turning redI'm searching for the words inside my headCause I'm feeling nervousTryin' to be so perfectCause I know you're worth itYou're worth it, yeahIf I could say what I want to sayI'd say I want to blow you, awayBe with you every nightAm I squeezing you too tightIf I could say what I want to seeI want to see you go down, on one kneeMarry me todayGuess I'm wishing my life awayWith these things I'll never sayIt don't do me any good it's just a waste of timeWhat use is it to you what's on my mindIf it ain't comin out we're not going anywhereSo why can't I just tell you that I careCause I'm feeling nervousTryin' to be so perfectCause I know you're worth it, you're worth it yeah I always think about if they like me think I am cute, what? what do they think about? I don't know if it is really love, but I have never felt this way for any guy or guys but them. If they ask me to do some I would in a heart beat and best of all thier christians:). I know maybe I am going a little over broad, but when I see the shine eyes it feels like my heart breaks inside when ever he sing, smile, are do any thing supid. (there a LOT more), but I don't know right now I'm looking for a older brother figure:(. so... I'm confused right now.

I wish I could spell

Spelling is a hard thing for me. how to do people say if you can read it you can spell it. That is a lie. I can read things like "I lkie to go to the mvoie or hnug out wiht firneds" it is said that some people xan read thind if the first and last letter is the same and the there letter are mixed. it just is hard when i try to write some thing I can't spell and i have to change my words so i am going to try to teach myself I am also going try slowing down a comman thing that it said to me. At first I could'nt figrue out but now I am going to try stopping at really . and , so if you hear me tallking to fast tell me

changes

a lot of my pictures are old. Now my hair is short and with blone stricks. I have gain20 pound at the begging of the summer now i am trying to loss it I am 5'8 and I think I am tall for a girl. I need a new carama hoply for my brithday. so whan i get pictures i will post them :)

school!!!

In school I'm trying to keep my mouth shut. A girl in one of my classes is getting to me. I have been keeping quite, but it is hard. beside that I am starting to write ever thing i have to do some I remeberand here the list:
avid- anwears question
L.A.-study vocab word
goegrahy- vocab
it does not seen like a lot, but it is there is more to it. One song that decision me is "on the outside looking in". youdon't know my nameyou don't know anything about meI try to play niceI want to be in your gameThe things that you sayYou may think I never hear about themBut word travels fastI'm telling you to your faceI'm standing here behind your back[Chorus:]You don't know how it feelsTo be outside the crowdYou don't know what it's likeTo be left outAnd you don't know how it feelsTo be your own best friend on the outside looking inIf you could read my mindYou might see more of me than meets the eyeAnd you've been all wrongNot who you think I amYou've never given me a chance[Chorus:]You don't know how it feelsTo be outside the crowdYou don't know what it's likeTo be left outAnd you don't know how it feelsTo be your own best friend on the outside looking inWell, I'm tired of staying at homeI'm bored and all aloneI'm sick of wasting all my time[Chorus (x2):]You don't know how it feelsTo be outside the crowdYou don't know what it's likeTo be left outAnd you don't know how it feelsTo be your own best friend on the outside looking inYou don't know how it feelsTo be outside the crowdYou don't know what it's likeTo be left outAnd you don't know how it feels so...... after that I what to sat things are getting better because of youth group it feel like i have more friends. I am so glad i met jess because with out her i wound have never have gone to my chruch.( I wish i could hung out with her more), but god have really move me and me happy. Thanks to god I have my youth group. Why I go to youth group is becasue after ever thing thats go on in the week I know that I can go to youth group and all of my prolbems and worries are gone. I love it all. The games the nerds and the cool people( Idon't know where I am at) to the drama, to who like me or do the person I like like me. I have a lot of qeustion,but I do really would like any one to go it is a great time. well bye for now, but can any one who read my blog comment and tell me what you think . THANKS.

It's be a long time.

so.... I have begin high school and a lot of things has change. Over the summer I have grow a lot, but I still make mistakes like all human do! just little one, but people still look down on you. I made a few of BIG mistakes in the past what makes people notice the little one. I will always make mistakes so some people need to live and forgive and they need to stop looking down on me for my little mistakes I can't help and I'm not going to change it because i'm human and i'm not going to act what i not! you know some time it hard to say some things to people at you really care about because of the out come at may happing so you just write it down, hope the person reads it, and it will never come up... I have been really tired and thing have not been going my way. so i'm just have to keep looking to God. I have been trying to tell my friend about God, but he comes up with really good question what are hard to anwears( i know that spelled wrong) I going to try to start reading the bible again it just so hard to understand. beside that I'm alway telling myself i'm going to lose weight, I am going to clean the house all the time and this in that, but (o.k. i am so happy my computer just turn off and this save thanks god!) when ever i tired it fail so I am going to take it step by step and with god help i can do it. :).... I love youth group I go all the time my friends ask" how do you like that" I say i fun you play games(awesome) everones "nice"(I'm sure people" talk") theres a great posture i love hearind god word. The question my friend asks me most on the bus is how do you know there is a god i said "because i have not been a christian or i have been one and desided not to follow and then my life was bad and now it awesome i have more friends and no more fight just ever thing been better." I was not a christian in till the summer and i think that is what help me grow up, but i alway put on a act. I did things at you would not ever think i'd do. I was no goody girl and i'm not afaid to amit it. I did do wrong things, but i have realies that god is my leader and i should live for him. I know I am still going to mess up, but when i do I'll pray and try to fix it.

head ake

latly by 6 perid of school i get a head ake, because people in that class drive me crazy. They don't know what to do, because of there behaver we all have to write and write and it drama, they don't know how to keep there mouth zip. then 7 perid is somewhat o.k. but my head ake is still going. 8th perid make my head ake come back. Every one is so rude and miss behaved. they don't know how to controlle there self. what make me mad most of all is that the teacher is O.k. with it and every time i come a litte late she yells, but not at any one alas. By this i,m really really want to go home, but on wes and thes i have to go to drama for an hour so

new hair cut

I got a new hair cut and i don't like it. I mean it looks good on danya and gloria because that the way it came out, but it not the way I wanted it and it don't look good on me. I just it will grow back.

typing skills

my tpying skills are geting better and better every day. I am taking tec. and I was wrong about it only being tpying we do alot of stuff in here. it is pretty fun.

student mistake/drama/busybee

VF my home teacher. (i use small words because i can't spell well. if you see thing that are well my sister wrote it.) had a student at 5:00 so now it at 6:30-7:00 on monday and thruday. that good because now i can try out for the after school drama. just to have a time to get home. my dad is saying that i need to not put more on my plate than i can handle. to be clare i'm doing this olny to become a doctor.

studying for cleaning

my friend is a very good teacher. she a one on one teacher. we made a deal if she help me with my prolbems on monday and thruaday. if i clean part of her house. one task like walk her dog or something. it a really good deal. hear husund tolded me that one man had to pay 10,000 dollers
for 6 months all have to do is clean her house one time a week. she doing it because she my friend. we're going to do it for one hour 4:30-5:30. i'm looking ford to it.

broking arm / mud slide

on sunday my mom broke her arm ice skating. when anna fall she turn around an she fall. it must of hurt. she went to the E.R. room with sarah. sarah got to drive home. / me and anna was walking to the store and on are way we though it was just dirt so we jump down and take a mud slide./ on the way back i call sarah just in time for her to come pick me up from the store.

grades

good grades and bad. scince F. s.s A. math D. and l.a A. this are my 3 week reprot card. i'm going to get them up. i'm glad about the A's.