this is a really good song. read it!

Wrong AgainFather I hate to tell you thisYou taught me how to hit the markAnd once again I missed.Touch the fireYou always said that I get burnedWhy is it so hard to remember?All the lessons I have learned.How could you look at me that way?When I have failed so many timesShowing me love you tell the worldThis child is mineHow could you walk that extra mile?I see forgiveness in your smileSo should you reject me?Wrong againOnce againLord I have wondered from a pathThought I knew a better wayFrom a shorter word you've askedStanding hereI don't deserve a second chanceAnd I can't conceal the shame of youThen more I can standWhen I look into your faceAnd see the power of your graceI find it so hard to believeForgiveness that you're showing meI see the answer in your eyesLove and mercy I realizedFinally the truth has set me freeI thought you was goingInstead you're just holyThought you would judgeInstead you just love meSo should you reject me?Wrong again this is a greaat song and what I feel

we got a new car!!!

and it is really nice. I love it and i thank god

we got a new car!!!

and it is really nice. I love it and i thank god

so i was playiny with my dad phone and I fond out you can send picture to your email. i thought it was cool so here some of the pics:

job hunting

I tryed to find a job, but all o fthe places say 16 or older. so I'm going to wait

so there! here a picture for all to see the new me!, but I'll have some more up when i get them from my freind.

it is fear that you turly fear! and what do you pick

why fear it now when it will come instead of fearing what has not happen. spend the time learning how to fight so you can win. the resaon why I say this is because of the fact that they will be a war between god and the devil. some are fear it and don't wont to believe it because they are to scared of what might happen but why why fear it. it is coming there is no change that. so spend your time learning how to fight because if you hide you will lose. What doyou pick the easy way or the right way. the easy way is to go down the wrong path. don't try, give up and go to the wrong side because you don't have to do any thing hard. no one will be trying to kill you in tall the end because if you don't workyou'll will go down the wrong path. it might be easy now but think of the end. what will be the out come?

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the meaning of the title is how I feel and that is that ><
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a job?

so I'm am thinking of getting a job. Maybe I sould tommorow I am going to get a working permate and go looking for a job because I am sick of not having money when some one ask me i i if want to go some where and i have no money or if i want some thing and I no no money. so I want to work at subway. but i have a busy weekness but on the week day I'm not so maybe I will get a job. I'm so tired all the time. my dad said that I have to keep my grades up c and higher, but that a good thing because all of my grades are b's and a's, but I have one c in P.E. :( it because I don't dress out because I forgot to clean my p.e. outfix so that less that a c and easy to get up:).

good AND bad or hell and heaven

so think of the most pretty thing you saw and now think about the wrost think that has ever happen. imange god say that hell and heaven are a 1,000 times wrost or better and for me it is the wrost thing that I seen latey is a jr. hitting a freahman for saying a HI to a girl and that was he girl friend. he made the freashmen CRY it made me so MAD I can't believe how mean the world is. Some of the books I read some of the things I'v seen. God said that the human mind can't understand what would happen to us in hell. It will be 1,000 times wrost them the human mind kind think of. wow! but it also say that heaven will be a 10,000 times better and think of the best think you have ever happen to you and think about the best think you have ever seen and then try to make it 10,000 times better then try to times it again. I can't imange, but still I have a thing inside of me. I,m am trying talk to god about it, but how do I hear him and my prolbem is how do I believe in some one who I never seen who I ever know and most of all how doi respeat him if I don't fear him, I don't know why but I have a lot of qeustions and I don't know how to talk to him and if he is punishing me how do I know it is him. well I know i am not that far in my walk, but I am growing and I have to keep on walking and I have to keep on going to get to heaven!

one busy busy day

so it started at 6;30 am when I got up. me and sarah and work on the home coming flout from 7:30 to 10:00 and for a hour we sat in the hot sun waiting. from 11:00 to12:30 some people and I had to run handing out candy to little kids and after that we went back to the school and in tall6 work on the set, then the next morning we got up at 6:00 for chrunch.

harry potter!!! and home coming

Harry potter is a really great book right now I am on the 4 book it is awesome and what I wanted to say about the book is it not bad unless you belive it and I don't. it was funny ,because I was at chruch and they were talking about if god ask you to do some thing would you out of fear or by faith and in the book who-sould-not-be-named is reborn and the death eater only come back out of fear. so.. moving on homecoming is coming. I have the dress, but no date and really i am fine with that I want to go and dacne with everyone.

so...

right now I am thinking of all the guy I like because in my life I am looking for a husband and i know I am to young, but hey what can I say. well when I was going throw all of the guy I liked two shanded out, but one of them is 3 years older then me that I'm going to call tall dude because he tall and the one 5 years older that I'mk going to call shine eyes and i ahve a song to decide them :)Here're the lyrics:I'm tuggin' at my hairI'm pullin' at my clothesI'm tryin to keep my coolI know it showsI'm staring at my feetMy cheeks are turning redI'm searching for the words inside my headCause I'm feeling nervousTryin' to be so perfectCause I know you're worth itYou're worth it, yeahIf I could say what I want to sayI'd say I want to blow you, awayBe with you every nightAm I squeezing you too tightIf I could say what I want to seeI want to see you go down, on one kneeMarry me todayGuess I'm wishing my life awayWith these things I'll never sayIt don't do me any good it's just a waste of timeWhat use is it to you what's on my mindIf it ain't comin out we're not going anywhereSo why can't I just tell you that I careCause I'm feeling nervousTryin' to be so perfectCause I know you're worth it, you're worth it yeah I always think about if they like me think I am cute, what? what do they think about? I don't know if it is really love, but I have never felt this way for any guy or guys but them. If they ask me to do some I would in a heart beat and best of all thier christians:). I know maybe I am going a little over broad, but when I see the shine eyes it feels like my heart breaks inside when ever he sing, smile, are do any thing supid. (there a LOT more), but I don't know right now I'm looking for a older brother figure:(. so... I'm confused right now.

I wish I could spell

Spelling is a hard thing for me. how to do people say if you can read it you can spell it. That is a lie. I can read things like "I lkie to go to the mvoie or hnug out wiht firneds" it is said that some people xan read thind if the first and last letter is the same and the there letter are mixed. it just is hard when i try to write some thing I can't spell and i have to change my words so i am going to try to teach myself I am also going try slowing down a comman thing that it said to me. At first I could'nt figrue out but now I am going to try stopping at really . and , so if you hear me tallking to fast tell me

changes

a lot of my pictures are old. Now my hair is short and with blone stricks. I have gain20 pound at the begging of the summer now i am trying to loss it I am 5'8 and I think I am tall for a girl. I need a new carama hoply for my brithday. so whan i get pictures i will post them :)