school!!!

In school I'm trying to keep my mouth shut. A girl in one of my classes is getting to me. I have been keeping quite, but it is hard. beside that I am starting to write ever thing i have to do some I remeberand here the list:
avid- anwears question
L.A.-study vocab word
goegrahy- vocab
it does not seen like a lot, but it is there is more to it. One song that decision me is "on the outside looking in". youdon't know my nameyou don't know anything about meI try to play niceI want to be in your gameThe things that you sayYou may think I never hear about themBut word travels fastI'm telling you to your faceI'm standing here behind your back[Chorus:]You don't know how it feelsTo be outside the crowdYou don't know what it's likeTo be left outAnd you don't know how it feelsTo be your own best friend on the outside looking inIf you could read my mindYou might see more of me than meets the eyeAnd you've been all wrongNot who you think I amYou've never given me a chance[Chorus:]You don't know how it feelsTo be outside the crowdYou don't know what it's likeTo be left outAnd you don't know how it feelsTo be your own best friend on the outside looking inWell, I'm tired of staying at homeI'm bored and all aloneI'm sick of wasting all my time[Chorus (x2):]You don't know how it feelsTo be outside the crowdYou don't know what it's likeTo be left outAnd you don't know how it feelsTo be your own best friend on the outside looking inYou don't know how it feelsTo be outside the crowdYou don't know what it's likeTo be left outAnd you don't know how it feels so...... after that I what to sat things are getting better because of youth group it feel like i have more friends. I am so glad i met jess because with out her i wound have never have gone to my chruch.( I wish i could hung out with her more), but god have really move me and me happy. Thanks to god I have my youth group. Why I go to youth group is becasue after ever thing thats go on in the week I know that I can go to youth group and all of my prolbems and worries are gone. I love it all. The games the nerds and the cool people( Idon't know where I am at) to the drama, to who like me or do the person I like like me. I have a lot of qeustion,but I do really would like any one to go it is a great time. well bye for now, but can any one who read my blog comment and tell me what you think . THANKS.

It's be a long time.

so.... I have begin high school and a lot of things has change. Over the summer I have grow a lot, but I still make mistakes like all human do! just little one, but people still look down on you. I made a few of BIG mistakes in the past what makes people notice the little one. I will always make mistakes so some people need to live and forgive and they need to stop looking down on me for my little mistakes I can't help and I'm not going to change it because i'm human and i'm not going to act what i not! you know some time it hard to say some things to people at you really care about because of the out come at may happing so you just write it down, hope the person reads it, and it will never come up... I have been really tired and thing have not been going my way. so i'm just have to keep looking to God. I have been trying to tell my friend about God, but he comes up with really good question what are hard to anwears( i know that spelled wrong) I going to try to start reading the bible again it just so hard to understand. beside that I'm alway telling myself i'm going to lose weight, I am going to clean the house all the time and this in that, but (o.k. i am so happy my computer just turn off and this save thanks god!) when ever i tired it fail so I am going to take it step by step and with god help i can do it. :).... I love youth group I go all the time my friends ask" how do you like that" I say i fun you play games(awesome) everones "nice"(I'm sure people" talk") theres a great posture i love hearind god word. The question my friend asks me most on the bus is how do you know there is a god i said "because i have not been a christian or i have been one and desided not to follow and then my life was bad and now it awesome i have more friends and no more fight just ever thing been better." I was not a christian in till the summer and i think that is what help me grow up, but i alway put on a act. I did things at you would not ever think i'd do. I was no goody girl and i'm not afaid to amit it. I did do wrong things, but i have realies that god is my leader and i should live for him. I know I am still going to mess up, but when i do I'll pray and try to fix it.