making a list

I am making a list....of things to make a list for. To me this is every funny because there were so many things I had to make a list for that I couldn't remember them. So I made a list. I am pretty sure that alot of people have done this but not me. So i just fond it funny... Now i am going to go make the other lists.

Reading and spelling

I am going to teach myself how to read and spell on my own time.
The reason why i am doing this is because i am tired of being made fun of for not knowing how to read and i want that to change.

NO MORE

i hate it. that every one tells me that i am not going to amount to anything. that i am stupid and every thing!!!!! i have been hiding my anger for so long. i am pissed that every one is telling me that i cant been anything because i am stupid. every job i every really wanted i cant do. Acting- cant do that because i cant sing or talk right. FBI/doctor- cant spell, not smart. all my life i have been knock down and made fun of because of many reason and I AM SICK OF IT!! well one thing i want to tell every one who tell me i cant do it is " watch out. you say i can't do it, watch and be wrong because i can amount to anything and everything!!"
you people have no idea. you think i am happy and everythings okay well that because i hide it well. but latey so many freaking things have happen. One thing is that i am no longer a christian but i am trying to anwears my questions about that. i feel like no one is there for me (not including my dad) i feel like i am going to grow old and have no one there and that is my worse fear and i have done told all my life that i was going too.

if you want to know the perfect song for how i fell right now it-welcome to my life by simple plan